Sunday, October 21, 2012

Ignite the light and let it shine

Today as I finished my workout at Synergy, I stopped to talk to a friend and all around fantastic lady who had also just finished the workout. She talked about an injury she's working around and working with but what she said stuck with me because she has incredible perspective. Rather than viewing her situation as a setback, she talked about her ability to strengthen her weaknesses through this time. I have no doubt she's going to bounce back well rounded and kick some serious behind. Her positivity really inspired me as I walked out of the gym because she's absolutely right, she's going to strengthen her weaknesses through this time and that's going to help her immeasurably in the long run. Amazing perspective, right?

As I was thinking about her positivity and smiling to myself on the ride home, Katy Perry's "Firework" came on the radio. I'm certain you're all familiar with it. Then suddenly... BOOM, I am nostalgic and having a full on deja vu moment (No, the boom was NOT a car crash, you can breathe. Ha). Anyway, I flashed back to my first Crossfit class ever, running prowlers. As it was my turn to run, Katy Perry's "Firework" was on. I remember as I heard the "3, 2, 1..." hearing "ignite the light and let it shine..." Crazy how this suddenly popped back into my memory, but it did. As I thought about my friend at the gym and about that first day at Crossfit, I began to consider how not everything is perfect, but everything happens for a reason. I believe good can come from anything, sometimes it just takes time to see it all. I don't think I ever would have found Crossfit if it weren't for a series of unfortunate/fortunate events.

 A lot of you may know, and some of you may not, but before I went back to university, I spent four years working as an Educational Assistant. I absolutely ADORED this job. I spent the school year working at school and I spent my summers doing summer camps or the paddling pool programs.

Life was pretty good. I loved my job, and I was convinced I would spent the rest of my life as an E.A. Now, cue the ground shaking earth shattering unfortunate events stuff. In my fourth year of working as an E.A. there were cutbacks in our system. Our school was informed we would be losing a large chunk of our E.A. staff and that it would be decided via seniority. Job performance mattered none. I was informed I would be losing my job at the school I loved and offered a part-time contract at another school. While this was a nice consolation prize, it crushed me. My world was rocked. I loved my school, I saw myself there forever. I couldn't see past that moment for any potential that could come from it. I spent an entire night with my poor room mate bawling my eyes out. Thank goodness she always has a shoulder. :)

Then cue potential. Ever since I was young I always wanted to either be an actress (ha, of course), or be a teacher. The whole university thing was horrifying to me because I didn't know anybody personally who knew the ropes. That is, until that exact moment. An E.A. friend of mine told me she was going to apply to the U of S and get a degree to teach. This was the crucial deciding moment for me... it was either take the jump, or hold on to my complacency and hope for the best. I jumped.

Cue my first day of school. I was so excited, a new world was opening up for me. On this day especially, I considered how lucky I was. Had my world not been rocked in the way it was, I am pretty certain I never would have had the courage to chase after this dream. As much as University has been a crazy and occasionally very stressful ride, it has been a worthwhile one. I've been finding myself. I'm finding myself as an academic, as a teacher, and as a person.

Then the unexpected, I am finding myself as an athlete. My jump to university gave me the courage to break out of my complacency and try new things. That's how I found Synergy. Another moment of the really "unfortunate"... being very unhappy with myself turning into the discovery of an incredible gym and the changing of my life again. It just keeps getting better.

So what have I learned from all of this? Well, just when things may appear to be bleak, or dark, or upsetting... keep that chin up. The sun really does come out tomorrow. Just as quickly as something can crush you, it can turn into something five million times better than it ever was before. If we never faced challenges in life, we'd never fully appreciate our successes.

Take some time, appreciate your successes. Give yourself a pat on the pack for them - you deserve it! 

Cause Baby, you're a firework. :)


-Kimmy G